Wow, I haven't been on here in.. in.. FOREVER. Funny. Well, almost a year actually... a bit less? Anyway, I'm rambling. Hey, hey, hey! What's been up? I've got a lot to say... sorta, maybe, kinda... Anyways, I have a boyfriend [had 2 this past year] and UGH he makes me so FRUSTRATED. Haha, you probably weren't expecting that outburst, were you. But yes, he makes me absolutely crazy with fury or whatever. I loved my past boyfriend, but things just didn't work out. And there's this OTHER guy who is drop dead cool, awesome, sweet, and cute. Haha, yeah. We get along pretty well. We flirt a lot too, and we play online games together and flirt on there too. My boyfriend has no clue of course [hahaha...] and I don't think I'll ever tell him. Not to sound very sneaky and a cheater. I mean, how am I cheating when he hangs out with a shit load of girls and stuff and hugs them and flirts with them, too? Yeah, didn't think so. But yeah, it's just weird, I suppose. I'm in eighth grade, now, by the way. Going to 9th this coming August. Years past so quickly, don't they? First, they're there, the next, they are just whisked away and it's like you're on a freight train to who-knows-where. Anyways, enough hocus-pocus from me.
Yeah, time have been hard here. I've been having multiple problems concerning school, home, online friends, real life friends. It's always drama left-to-right. I don't know what to do anymore. I absolutely hate e-drama; it just annoys me a lot. I love all my online friends though, they're always a blast to hang out with online on online-games. But yeah... It's just hard to deal with e-drama and real life drama. Some drama is the drama where my Grandma has alzeihmers and my grandpa just wants to plain die. The whole family is confused on what to do with them. Another drama is my mother and her boyfriends. Yes, she's been cheating on my dad. It's been steadily going on for about 2 years now? Yes, it's been that long. Then school... hell, I don't even want to go there. My parents expect so much from me and my grades. I had a B+ and the rest were A's and they told me to get that B+ up to an A. It may not be hard for you guys, but it's really hard for me to my studies up, I don't know why, but it just is.
Another thing that really pisses me off is my boyfriend. So dramatic all the time. I don't get him at all, and yet I love him. How does that work out? Is it even right to be pissed off at someone you pledged to spend your life with together because HE needed you so much? I don't know. But he got into a car accident [yes, he's older than I am], and now he's seeing a therapist to cure his fear of driving. He also has been going through some friend problems and has been very... emo, shall I say, about that too. I don't know how much longer I can put up with him. I hate lying to him every single day that nothing is his fault, that everything is fine, that I don't care what he does. Because sometimes it is his fault that I'm so down-in-the-dirt with a lot of things, mostly him. And I'm not fine because I'm always spending nights and sometimes during the day worrying my ass off about him. He wants me to tell him my feelings; my TRUE feelings. But I just can't; it would hurt him too much. I'm not sure what I feel for him... but I do love him, but I just don't think it's enough for the both of us anymore.
By the way, I am so over Garret. :) He was just a fantasy crush that I probably never would have stayed long with, you know? We're sort of just friends now. But yeah, I've made a lot of friend this past year. It's fun making new friends, but it's sad when they have to leave. But then again, friendships don't last forever if you don't put effort into it. Sometimes they stray in end, but you'll always have the good memories to keep you going, to keep you happy, even if they were just 2 minutes long.

One last word before I go: Live your life to the fullest. You only have one life, and we aren't coming back to the same body, so don't be such a stiffy and have fun. Not THAT kind of fun if that's what you're thinking. But like, hanging with friends, deep talks with close friends. Maybe a party here or there. It wouldn't hurt. Just don't go overboard. And remember that your family members love you and so do your friends. They're always with you even if you think they're not. All you have to do is open your mouth and pour your soul into them and they'll find a way to help you, because that is what friends are for. :3

Well, I'll talk to you later. Talk to you later, loves. <3